I woke up early today, stepped out onto the balcony, looking over cold Lake Michigan. It doesn’t feel like spring, even though it should be. Neither the weather, nor my mind or my wanting is here.
The sun hasn’t fully come up, and while staring over the glistening lake, I am only dreaming of sandy [...]
“We do what we do because of who we are. If we did otherwise, we would not be ourselves.” -Dream
Yes yes… it has been awhile. Life has been busy, what can I say. At the urging of a friend, trying to write again, but will be hard, between work, painting and walking my cat [...]
Recently, I switched over to e-cigarettes. It was spurred on by different motivations, but intrigue and an alternative to cut my alarming increase this past year were the most apparent. Yes, I know all the harmful things that can come from it; I still have vivid memories of my dad watching medical procedures on tv [...]
A couple of weeks ago I had a weird dream about an ex from years ago… I guess it wasn’t too surprising then when I bumped into her on the streets a few days later. She was in town doing a shoot. Seeing her was quite the shock. She just celebrated a birthday and was [...]
Four thirty A.M, I’m awake again
Singing to the dark through open eyes
While dreaming I see only you and me
Stuck between desire and compromise
This past year has brought so many extremes for everyone…
It’s been exactly one year since I have since G and it breaks my heart. I [...]
I wrote this a while back, originally meant to be a part of the previous post, but decided to make it into a separate one. Didn’t get a chance to finish it until now, so enjoy.
The night is young. I feel invincible, as I do every night. I find myself out again, in [...]
Last Saturday, I watched one of my close friends and great supporters in life get married. It was a day she was waiting for her entire life and seemed far removed from several lifetimes ago that I first met her in the dim lit club where she mixed me an unknown concoction of drinks. It [...]
Woke up extremely early with most of my work finished late last night so I had the chance to do some creative writing here. Had a very early start to a somewhat unusual morning routine. Woke up to Fleetwood Mac playing. No milk so no latte to start my day, instead went with some [...]
Trouble sleeping tonight. Always trouble sleeping.
On my headboard I have two photos of G taped there that I have been staring at for awhile.
One is of him on the swings. His last week here, I would spend hours with him at the playground. We’d watch the stars come up. I’d point them out [...]